Buy a cheeseburger ( ignore the chemicals), Buy a car, Buy a house, put it all on credit card, buy tennis shoes, charge it on credit card,,,,,,,
The Powers that be want you not to think clearly. That´s why there are televisions, alcohol and drugs.
Watch this video. It will give you a whole new concept about what talking to yourself is all about. You may set up times to do it after you see this.